Hi Hermela,
I don’t know if you meant to post this here or not, but now that I read it, I just want to say that you are right. You don’t need to ‘face your fear’ 24 hours a day, seven days a week. And there is no shame in feeling lost. In my opinion, if you have a chance to put your mind at ease, even if it’s just for a while, you should take it. I sincerely hope that you feel better soon.